lazy bambam :p

today
i didn't do anytin
all i did was lying on my luvly bed n tido n tido n tido
tido smpai rs pnt dh tido
lazy bambam tol~

BUT
i discovered sumtin 2day
doin nutin n lying all day long made me thought bout few things
things in my life
things which i kept on denying
evendo i kno dat the time will come when i need to start to think over dis matter n evaluate it
perhaps i was soooo afraid 2 think bout it
afraid of da fact dat at da end of da day
i might get hurt
it might b worst than hurt
perhaps i'll b torn into pieces till i dun even hav da guts 2 put everytin back 2gather
ohhh how i wish dat day will nver come *praypray*

i discovered my biggest fear today
I AM AFRAID OF BEING LEFT OUT ALL ALONE
WITHOUT NO ONE BY MY SIDE
afriad dat 1 day i hav 2 let him go (yess it's him)
i'm not ready
NOT YET
i haven't have any backup plan
i need 2 have one
perhaps i shud start thinking bout dis
perhaps find another guy :p
hahahahaahhaha!!
but can i?
demdem!

errr~
did i said it out loud enuf?
ouh~
am i exposing myself here?
not really
bcos no one knows bout dis blog pon :p
haven't go aloud bout dis
perhaps i just keep it 2 myself 1st
but if ever others kno bout dis
then just let them kno
n i shall think bout dat later on bcos i kno dat is not goin 2 happen in any time soon


till then
whatever~