He Had Such Quiet Eyes *damn*

He had such quiet eyes
She did not realise
They were two pools of lies
Layered with thinnest ice
To her, those quiet eyes
Were breathing desolate sighs
Imploring her to be nice
And to render him paradise

If only she'd been wise
And had listened to the advice
Never to compromise
With pleasure-seeking guys
She'd be free from "the hows and whys"

Now here's a bit of advice
Be sure that nice really means nice
Then you'll never be losing at dice
Though you may lose your heart once or twice

Bibsy Soenharjo

a very beautiful poem
eyes and mind opening
if u understand it
:(


till then
whatever~

gloomy day

here i am
sitting by the window
watching the rain
waiting patiently for the rain to stop
a bit chilly here
well i dun think the rain will stop in any time soon
it's been raining lately
such a gloomy day
as gloomy as i am rite now
people come and go
a lot actually
but im just sitting here for almost 4hours
without me realizing it
time passes quickly
sometimes i dun even realize how time has passed by
everything seems so unclear rite now
honestly i dun even know wut i really want rite now
perhaps anytin dat can make me happy wud do
evendo it just for temporary
whatever it is
i'm up for it
bring it on
hey WORLD
here i come !


till then
whatever~

doctor ?

a friend suggested to me dat i shud go n see a doc
about my sleeping disorder
n also talk 2 da doc about my probs
perhaps i will feel better by doin dat

how shud i react when sum1 suggested dat to me?
am i dat obvious ?
errr
shud i be worried bout my condition rite now?
such a mess kan ?

p/s: btw he is a doc-to-be
*iguessishouldbereallyworriedrightnow*sigh*


till then
whatever~

:D

pic taken during one of the pre-weddings photo shoot of our client
location:putrajaya
very well edited
by:mrDuku

if only i wore sumtin more vibrant rather than black
*sigh*
*dh mcm kepala terbang*

ready?

in the end
everyone ends up alone
are you ready for the day?
u better be ..


till then
whatever~

tapaham ~

im confusedd
really
tp
apa sbnrnya yg x dfahami
bnda ini sgt simple
xda putar belit
tp
sbb apa buat dia jd rumit
y everytin has 2 b sooo complicated?
well
pdn muka~
sendiri cari psl
skrg
sendiri tanggung la
padan muka cikNorlida!
ouh!


till then
whatever~

finally :D

yeahhh !!
finallyyyy :D:D
sudah tmt final utk sem ini
gembira !!
*evendo bnyk xleh jwp td ;(*
ahh ~
i dun care
let it be
ahhahaaahha !!
yg ptg
aku sudah bebasss
teeheee :p
but still
there r more ASSignments which need 2 b submitted
*demdem*
but
wuteva it is
arini just nk relax n enjoy the moment
can i?
lallaallalala ~

till then
whatever~

bad me

yes
these daysss
i do curse a lot
when i say a lot
believe me
A LOT

*demdem*


till then
whatever~

ohGod ;(

oh God
dugaan kali ni btol2 mncabar
aku hampir tertewas
hampir
tp belom
bg lah aku kekuatan smpai isnin ni 12noon ja
pls
sikit ja lg

;(

stop !

dun talk SHIT to me !

numb :(

kaki melecet
xrasa sakit

lutut lebam
xrasa sakit

mata lebam
xrasa sakit

jrwt yg banyak
xrasa sakit

periodpain
xrasa sakit

suma xrasa sakit
sbb HATI lg sakit


;(

reality ~

im facing the reality now
whether i like it o not
dis is it
just face it norlida!
b strong!
b tough!
bcos life is rough
dun let others hurt u anymo
evendo u may take some time to recover
u will
u kno u will rite?
*hope so :(:(*
evendo u r not ready yet
u have to !
fix urself !
fix da alignment back !

yess !!

perhaps dats how life is
just bare wit it ~


till then
whatever~

maafkan saya cikHati :(

hati saya sangat sakit sekarang
sakit sangatsangat
dia sangat memerlukan ubat
ubat untuk merawat hati saya yang sakit ini
kenapa saya tidak menjaga hati saya betulbetul
saya telah berlaku tidak adil pada hati saya
saya sangat sibuk menjaga hati orang lain
sehingga saya telah terlupa untuk menjaga hati saya sendiri
kasihan dia
dia sangat tidak bersalah
saya yang bersalah
maafkan saya wahai cikHati
saya akan berusaha sedaya upaya saya untuk mengubati kamu
untuk mencari penawar untuk kesakitan kamu ini

lazy bambam :p

today
i didn't do anytin
all i did was lying on my luvly bed n tido n tido n tido
tido smpai rs pnt dh tido
lazy bambam tol~

BUT
i discovered sumtin 2day
doin nutin n lying all day long made me thought bout few things
things in my life
things which i kept on denying
evendo i kno dat the time will come when i need to start to think over dis matter n evaluate it
perhaps i was soooo afraid 2 think bout it
afraid of da fact dat at da end of da day
i might get hurt
it might b worst than hurt
perhaps i'll b torn into pieces till i dun even hav da guts 2 put everytin back 2gather
ohhh how i wish dat day will nver come *praypray*

i discovered my biggest fear today
I AM AFRAID OF BEING LEFT OUT ALL ALONE
WITHOUT NO ONE BY MY SIDE
afriad dat 1 day i hav 2 let him go (yess it's him)
i'm not ready
NOT YET
i haven't have any backup plan
i need 2 have one
perhaps i shud start thinking bout dis
perhaps find another guy :p
hahahahaahhaha!!
but can i?
demdem!

errr~
did i said it out loud enuf?
ouh~
am i exposing myself here?
not really
bcos no one knows bout dis blog pon :p
haven't go aloud bout dis
perhaps i just keep it 2 myself 1st
but if ever others kno bout dis
then just let them kno
n i shall think bout dat later on bcos i kno dat is not goin 2 happen in any time soon


till then
whatever~

siapa punya?

kepunyaan siapakah airair teh o ais ini?
hahahaahaha :p

will everytin be okay in the end?

i'm mentally n emotionally disturbed rite now :(

happy birthday norlida :)

me being 22 years old :)

altho i didn't get my cndle lite dnner :(
at least my dnner dat nite was free
courtesy of Nano (Que's kesayangan)
i ate chic leg n got daim cake from Que


dis pic was taken by Q after da dnner at Hometown Kopitiam
(post party la knon)
*courtesy of me*
hahahahhaaa :p

till then
whatever~

niubeee :)

im 22 years 2 days today :)
n dis is my 1st entry
did i purposedly wait 4 dis day?
not really :p
but suddenly i feel like i need 2 do sumtin new 2day
so i decided to give a shot evendo i dun really kno wut 2 write
(no harm rite?)

honestly, i was not a big fan of any blogger
neither i hav da intrest to become a blogger n tell others bout things dat happened 2 me
BUT lately, i've been following dis 1 particular blog
i can't say her name here (yesss it's 'HER')
hahahahaahahaa :p
dun get me wrong here
it's not bcos i like her
but there are few things dat evolved around her which i'm very corcerned with
if u r smart enuf u will kno wut 'things' dat im talking bout
hahahahhaa :p

woww
it's not so hard to write a blog ea?
i myself cant believe dat im doin dis :p
perhaps i just found my new interest
or perhaps it's just sumtin totally new 2 me n 'ciwi' n i hav no idea of wut im doing

till then
whatever~