ohGod ;(

oh God
dugaan kali ni btol2 mncabar
aku hampir tertewas
hampir
tp belom
bg lah aku kekuatan smpai isnin ni 12noon ja
pls
sikit ja lg

;(

stop !

dun talk SHIT to me !

numb :(

kaki melecet
xrasa sakit

lutut lebam
xrasa sakit

mata lebam
xrasa sakit

jrwt yg banyak
xrasa sakit

periodpain
xrasa sakit

suma xrasa sakit
sbb HATI lg sakit


;(

reality ~

im facing the reality now
whether i like it o not
dis is it
just face it norlida!
b strong!
b tough!
bcos life is rough
dun let others hurt u anymo
evendo u may take some time to recover
u will
u kno u will rite?
*hope so :(:(*
evendo u r not ready yet
u have to !
fix urself !
fix da alignment back !

yess !!

perhaps dats how life is
just bare wit it ~


till then
whatever~

maafkan saya cikHati :(

hati saya sangat sakit sekarang
sakit sangatsangat
dia sangat memerlukan ubat
ubat untuk merawat hati saya yang sakit ini
kenapa saya tidak menjaga hati saya betulbetul
saya telah berlaku tidak adil pada hati saya
saya sangat sibuk menjaga hati orang lain
sehingga saya telah terlupa untuk menjaga hati saya sendiri
kasihan dia
dia sangat tidak bersalah
saya yang bersalah
maafkan saya wahai cikHati
saya akan berusaha sedaya upaya saya untuk mengubati kamu
untuk mencari penawar untuk kesakitan kamu ini

lazy bambam :p

today
i didn't do anytin
all i did was lying on my luvly bed n tido n tido n tido
tido smpai rs pnt dh tido
lazy bambam tol~

BUT
i discovered sumtin 2day
doin nutin n lying all day long made me thought bout few things
things in my life
things which i kept on denying
evendo i kno dat the time will come when i need to start to think over dis matter n evaluate it
perhaps i was soooo afraid 2 think bout it
afraid of da fact dat at da end of da day
i might get hurt
it might b worst than hurt
perhaps i'll b torn into pieces till i dun even hav da guts 2 put everytin back 2gather
ohhh how i wish dat day will nver come *praypray*

i discovered my biggest fear today
I AM AFRAID OF BEING LEFT OUT ALL ALONE
WITHOUT NO ONE BY MY SIDE
afriad dat 1 day i hav 2 let him go (yess it's him)
i'm not ready
NOT YET
i haven't have any backup plan
i need 2 have one
perhaps i shud start thinking bout dis
perhaps find another guy :p
hahahahaahhaha!!
but can i?
demdem!

errr~
did i said it out loud enuf?
ouh~
am i exposing myself here?
not really
bcos no one knows bout dis blog pon :p
haven't go aloud bout dis
perhaps i just keep it 2 myself 1st
but if ever others kno bout dis
then just let them kno
n i shall think bout dat later on bcos i kno dat is not goin 2 happen in any time soon


till then
whatever~

siapa punya?

kepunyaan siapakah airair teh o ais ini?
hahahaahaha :p

will everytin be okay in the end?

i'm mentally n emotionally disturbed rite now :(

happy birthday norlida :)

me being 22 years old :)

altho i didn't get my cndle lite dnner :(
at least my dnner dat nite was free
courtesy of Nano (Que's kesayangan)
i ate chic leg n got daim cake from Que


dis pic was taken by Q after da dnner at Hometown Kopitiam
(post party la knon)
*courtesy of me*
hahahahhaaa :p

till then
whatever~

niubeee :)

im 22 years 2 days today :)
n dis is my 1st entry
did i purposedly wait 4 dis day?
not really :p
but suddenly i feel like i need 2 do sumtin new 2day
so i decided to give a shot evendo i dun really kno wut 2 write
(no harm rite?)

honestly, i was not a big fan of any blogger
neither i hav da intrest to become a blogger n tell others bout things dat happened 2 me
BUT lately, i've been following dis 1 particular blog
i can't say her name here (yesss it's 'HER')
hahahahaahahaa :p
dun get me wrong here
it's not bcos i like her
but there are few things dat evolved around her which i'm very corcerned with
if u r smart enuf u will kno wut 'things' dat im talking bout
hahahahhaa :p

woww
it's not so hard to write a blog ea?
i myself cant believe dat im doin dis :p
perhaps i just found my new interest
or perhaps it's just sumtin totally new 2 me n 'ciwi' n i hav no idea of wut im doing

till then
whatever~